Great Vexations by AngstGoddess003

http://angstgoddess003.livejournal.com/tag/great+vexations
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5415199/1/Great_Vexations
Word Count: 15,152

Official Description: Oneshot-SLASH: Jasper is brought home to live with the Cullens in hopes of providing lonely orphan Edward a friend. As they come of age, Jasper struggles with attachments, unrequited lust, and hostility in the wake of being left behind. E/J. Rated M

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manyafandom says: I had the pleasure of meeting angstgoddess003 a few months ago at Comic-Con. We talked about a lot of things, but one thing that stuck in my mind was this idea she had for a slash story where Jasper dry-humps a pillow. It was the only thing that she told me about it, I was intrigued and slightly weirded out if I’m being totally honest. Well Great Vexations is the dry-humping a pillow story and boy did she ever deliver.

This is not a happy story nor does it have a happy ending, sure it has moments where the reader goes ‘awww’ and wants nothing more than to hug Jasper tight and tell him everything is going to be okay. The ending might not be happy one, but it’s real and right and fits the story. Great Vexations is defs not WussPerv approved, just a warning.

I could give you a quick summary of the story, but it’s better if you the reader discover it for yourself and form your own opinions of the two main characters. I will tell you this though; Jasper is lost and alone in this story, broken and scarred by a not so nice past. Edward is his light, his white knight, the one that keeps the monster at bay, his everything.

Great Vexations is dark, not in the murder, mayhem and bloodlust kind of way. But in the letting ones hopes, wants and desires take over and blind you from the truth kind of way. It’s a story about growing up and realizing all that you thought was true, that grounded you is false.

It’s heartbreakingly good, not just because of the story being told but the way in which it’s told. AG’s narrative is poetic and shows us instead of telling us. We feel what Jasper is feeling; his highs, lows, loss and love. It’s simply beautiful, and the fact that it’s Jasper and Edward just makes it even better.

mozzer0906 says: This is a heartbreaking story of a young boy who comes to learn that he is madly in love with his best friend. The way Jasper’s emotions are portrayed in the story left me in tears; I connected with him early on in the story and I wanted some way for him to find happiness. Alas, happiness is not to be found for everyone simply because they want it to be so and thus the story will leave you with a dagger in your chest, but in a very good way.

The thing I enjoy about heartfail is that in order to truly deliver, you have to make me care about the characters enough in order to feel sadness at their loss. This is especially difficult to do in a one-shot when you have limited words to help bond with the characters. This fic delivered the heartfail in spades and I was cursing her name as I rocked back and forth in a corner surrounded by tissues screaming out “hide the razor blades”.

Looking beyond the heartfail, this fic also delivers what I enjoy most about all of Angstgoddess003’s fics – it has a fantastic inner character voice. You feel as if you are watching the story unfold from Jasper’s mind; when he obsesses over certain things, you see that obsession laid out before you in words which make you understand not only that he is completely enamored with Edward Cullen, but exactly why he is so far gone. It is the why that I think makes the story, you understand where Jasper is coming from and so you can take the journey with him knowing his motivations along the way, as well as the cruel untruths he allows himself to believe because reality is just far too painful to confront.