Official Description: Edward & Jasper were roommates in University. They both have wives and new lives now, but a three day reunion will force them to examine the relationship they chose not to explore and left behind so many years ago. SLASH ExJ
Word Count: 93,039

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I fell in love with this story from the very first second I started reading it!! It was recommended to me on Twitter because I was looking for a good slash fic to satisfy me. First off, I am totally Team Edward and lo and behold, Jazz is my second favorite so you can imagine my absolute fucking delight to have a slash fic with BOTH of them in it?? It was like heaven on my g’damn eyes.

In all seriousness, this has become one of my favorite fics that I’ve ever read, and I’ve read a lot of great stories. I sobbed, hugged, laughed myself through this wonderful story full of raw emotions, heartache, longing, and the difficulties of self discovery, desire and the barrier of sexuality.

After I finished the final chapter I realized something – and it hit me like a fucking ton of bricks. This story became so much more to me than just a slash fic – I actually forgot in the end that there was even a gender issue, it became a true, beautiful, and fucking perfect love story. A love story about two people that were lost in their separate lives, living with a memory that never seemed to fade, and searching their souls and their hearts for what they really wanted…needed. To me that made this story an excellent read. I fell in love with both Edward and Jazz all over again and ached for them as their lives were in different places, their hearts wounded, their minds tangled, hoping for a perfect outcome that would make them both happy.

EFC is a talented writer and told a seamless, realistic story that captured me from Chapter One. Every detail, back story, every chapter just fit so perfectly, there was never an awkward transition or moment – beautifully written. I love being so captivated and drawn into a fic that I abandon all other responsibilities as I did with Love Between The Sexes. I felt every emotion along with the characters, snotted on a lot of fucking tissues as the tears blurred my vision of my screen and laughed so hard I had to pee. I hardly ever have the time to sit and just read several chapters at once, let alone a fic all at once, I couldn’t stop reading this. If you’ve not read this story, I urge you to do it. Like right now. You certainly won’t be disappointed.

This will forever be a story that I could read again and again and love it every time. I can’t say enough about it and constantly recommend it to anyone who will listen!

I have no idea who recommended this fic to me, but let me just send out a big thank you!. I saw it Tweeted and decided to give it a chance. I’m so happy I did, as it’s become one of my favorites! I don’t read a lot of slash, but this story just sucked me in from the get go. I’m not gay. I have no idea what it feels like to be gay, or to have to deal with the societal pressures that come with being gay. But after reading this story, I feel like I genuinely understand.
EFC has masterfully put into words the struggles of two best friends who are facing their true feelings for one another. Both consider themselves “straight”. Both have wives and are leading separate lives. But they both also know that the feelings that they’ve had for each other since college aren’t going away.
When we first see them get together, it’s obvious that neither of them understands what’s happening between them and what it means. In the quote below, we see just how confused they both really are, stuck between wanting something so badly and being scared of the same thing.

“What does this mean?” he asked, almost begging me to give him some answers, but all I could do was shake my head while never breaking our gaze. I could feel his chest pumping up and down against my own, his breaths heavy like mine. His tongue slowly slid from his mouth, and I watched him lick his lips in anticipation. That god damn tongue again. I had no idea what he was expecting, fuck, I had no idea what to expect.
“I’ve never…” he said shaking his head back and forth, his gaze focusing on my mouth and I shivered as I realized what we were about to do. I didn’t know if I wanted to, but I wasn’t sure I didn’t want to either.

Even as they come together emotionally, they still have no idea how to be together in an intimate way physically. It’s awkward and sweet. It’s something that most heterosexuals don’t have to think about much- wanting to share your body, but not knowing how, or worse, being scared of it.

There was no other sound I could hear other than my own breath and my heart beating as though it was about to explode. We lay there for a moment, both of us gathering the courage to continue. I briefly wondered if he was going to change his mind, and the fear flooded my body, causing my stomach to turn. He shifted slightly, and his cock pushed against my own and I let out a deep sigh and closed my eyes.
“I don’t know what to do,” he whispered and my eyes shot open. His expression was shy and questioning and he waited for me to answer.
“I don’t know either,” I answered honestly, but I lifted my hips ever so slightly and he groaned in pleasure and let out a sigh.
“Okay,” he said softly, while leaning down and placing his lips on my neck. He bit down gently and goosebumps rose all over my body. I shivered and Jasper chuckled, but continued making his way down my neck to my chest.

Edward and Jasper’s journeys to self-discovery take them in two different directions. Edward befriends Alec, a gay man and Jasper’s uncle, and he shows Edward that his life doesn’t have to be so isolating. Edward has preconceived notions of what being gay means, imagining over the top flamboyance and promiscuous behavior. Among all the other confusion in his life, he worries that he won’t fit in. Despite Alec’s support and help, he can’t accept the reality of being gay.

He waved his finger at me. “You need to accept who you are.”
“And what’s that? Gay?” I said laughing. “Sorry, Alec I just don’t feel it.” He continued to stare at me down the length of his nose, waiting for me to say something else. “I’m sorry!” I raised my hands. “I don’t. Can’t you just love the person?” I asked, because this was the confusing part. I’d never had feelings for anyone of the same sex, apart from Jasper. He was the only one and even now, after all that had happened, I didn’t think I had any tendencies toward men. I couldn’t be sure, but it wasn’t like I had been lying in my bed and dreaming about having another man’s mouth on my cock. There was only one mouth I imagined, and I tried my hardest not to have any imaginings of that nature. Eight months and there hadn’t been an inkling of desire in any direction. Male or female. But now that I was sitting here talking about it with Alec, I wondered. Would I have feelings for another man? Or would it be a woman?

Here’s another confusing moment with Alec at a commitment ceremony.

I was completely out of my element here, and I needed the liquid courage. I was at a gay wedding… for two women. Less than a year ago, I was in my comfortable home, with my somewhat comfortable job and my less than comfortable wife. Now I was in a top dollar suit, with a gay man almost twice my age at an event I never could have dreamed up, all the while questioning my sexuality. I let out a deep breath before giving the bartender my order… for a double.
I surveyed the scene. I was definitely an outsider here. Everyone knew each other very well, like they were family. It wasn’t at all what I’d expected, but then again, I didn’t know what I’d expected. This was Alec’s not so subtle hint to let me know I could have a different life if I chose to. And he also wanted me to know it didn’t look as bad as I thought.

As Edward is trying to figure things out, Jasper lives in denial. That denial tears at him and wears him down. Raised in a family with deep prejudices, Jasper won’t allow himself to live that “lifestyle”. He won’t allow himself to succumb to his desires. He won’t allow himself to be happy.
I won’t tell you more about the plot, because it’s just such a good one to read. I loved their journey. The story is so beautifully written that I felt right there with the characters, reveling in their highs and wallowing in their lows.
Even if you never read slash- read this one. It’ll heighten your awareness and make you see that there are areas of grey and not just black and white.